Out of the loop

By redpanda On April 15th, 2010

a bit because of various things that have happened……………so the good news first………….

Finally got back on the bike last weekend for the first time…………..out to Moors Valley which I like a lot cos there are not too many hilly bits…………..they also have some very nice trails out there which they are also expanding by another 7km………should be good when its finished……………as for the not many hills…………..Tim has a lot to answer for………..we always park in a lay by area near where entrance to Moors Valley is…………I hate paying for parking unless we really have to……………..and we went a slightly different way into the park this time…………..the hills in places were steeper than ever and I had to walk some of them because of the pressure on my knee………….I pinched Krisite’s kiting knee pads but got some of my own at the weekend……………..I did come off once but it was on soft sand and not too bad a landing…………..the pads worked a dream…………….I really enjoyed the ride and the knee held up very well indeed all things considered……………

The dieting is going ok…………….finally got my 2 and a half stone award and not through want of trying…………..5lb in one week for me is more than good especially as Easter was included…………put a little on last week but hopefully it will start coming off in small amounts with the odd large one thrown in………….still got a long way to go…………….

The job front is very up and down at the moment………………did a temp job in Ringwood last week for 4 days but nothing this week……………been to a couple of new agencies this week who are very forward thinking and are hoping to get me something sorted out soon……………..I did get offered a post with one of the big banks but it was then withdrawn due to references…………..no idea what has been said but I am finding it is hindering me in getting something permanent………………I just want to work……………I hate not working properly and really need the stability of working to keep me from becoming depressed again……………..I am coping but some days are really bad where as others are really good…………Tim is working from home a lot to make sure that I don’t fall back into old habits which to a degree I like but I do wish I could be on my own more sometimes……………..I know it is for my own good but I need space as well………….the one thing I do not want is to become a horrible person again…………..I want to stay away from that and make progress like I have today……………

Going to Westward Ho! Saturday……………..taking the camera and hopefully getting some good pictures then in three weeks we are off to Gisburn in Lancashire for a biking weekend……………both should be fun and it will be nice to meet some of the biking people……………………

Speedway season is now under way and my team the Poole Pirates are top of the league at this early stage in the season…………….of course there is a long way to go yet but I would like to see us win it this year……………..

More after the weekend………………..

In demand

By redpanda On April 2nd, 2010

One minute there is nothing the next I am being offered two jobs for next week in different places one of which is paying almost double what the first one is………………it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to guess which one I am doing………………..going to have to get used to early mornings especially if Tim is not here cos it means catching a busĀ  at silly o’clock to be in Ringwood at 9.00……………its with the insurance section of a finance company…………….its only for 4 days but it could become a permanent thing……………….also got another interview on Tuesday morning for something more local………………

Lost another pound this week so I am happy with that but then I should lose again next week cos I think I have got the female version of ‘Man Flu’ which is not what I want over Easter…………….I hate feeling ill……………drives me barmy…………and as soon as I complain about it everyone moans……………well next time they are ill there will be no sympathy from me…………………….

Still not feeling up to going on the bike yet……………might have a little road run out over the weekend if it stops raining long enough to go out……………..all it seems to do here is rain at the moment…………..

Still having good days and bad days but the good are outnumbering the bad which can only be a good thing…………..and I feel more content than I have done for a long time……………..again that can only be good for me……………still getting the headaches…………….though not as frequently and not as bad as they were but still there…………………

Not much else to report……………..off for a bath and an early night…………….