New Year and a New Me

By redpanda On January 3rd, 2010

Yep that is the plan for this year………………..I need to change certain things in my life and for the better so that is my goal…………..

By the end of the year I would like to be……….

At least another 3 stone lighter

Be on a lower dose of anti depressants

Be more calm and rational about things

and do exactly what I say I am going to do and then do it instead of delaying it

I have had a few tough times trying to come to terms with things……….some of which I prefer to forget ever happened, some of which I am glad happened even though it should have been done differently and some of which should have happened but for whatever reason did not…………..well not in the way they were planned anyway………….

My dreams for this year are to be fit and well for as much time as possible………….to get out on the bike more……….to get more other exercise…………to still be happily married to my wonderful husband………..and for the kids to be happy in what they are doing……………

Today has been good……..a nice long walk and now puddle paddling for a change but there was a lot of ice around…………..I just hope that if we get snow I can get to work……………Can’t ride the bike as my knee is playing up and driving me and I still have this headache which will not go away…………….may be I need to get it checked……………

I need to stop eating crap as well…………just as well nearly all the Christmas goodies are gone………..the sweet stuff has been my downfall this year………..Stollen, mince pies, chocolate…………..the serious diet starts again now………….I have Tim’s birthday on Saturday coming and want to do a nice low fat meal for him……….a really diet friendly one…………..so I’m off to look at recipes for the day…………….could be fun trying to find something that we both like…………

I have been watching what is going on for the Speedway season too………..looks like Poole’s team is almost complete…..what with signing Darcy Ward and bringing Davey Watt back in to go with Chris Holder things are shaping up nicely……………..I hope to get down there a few times this year and would not mind doing some photo’s……………as the collection needs a bit of variation in it now…………..

Oh well back to the meal planning……………….

Christmas…………loved it……….

By redpanda On December 28th, 2009

As I said before this year I was really enthusiastic about Christmas……………and I was not disappointed……..

There was the usual chaos in the run up hampered by the bad weather which of course did not turn to snow……………was fun and I was very well organised for a change…………all the presents wrapped by 9 on Christmas Eve………..everything delivered and collected Christmas Eve…………big food shop done on the Wednesday…………along with some hand delivery cards……………and the great waterproof sock hunt…………………

The day its self was amazing…………….a nice leisurely start to the morning with the kids opening their ‘Santa’ stuff………a beautiful watch and bracelet from him indoors along with some of my favorite music………..Tim did well as did the kids…………..they had loads of stuff and the lounge still looks like a bomb has gone off in it…………Dinner was good though a little late due to the roast potatoes taking longer than planned……………..all very diet friendly…………….and then to my Mum’s for Boxing Day tea…………again all very diet friendly and loads of it…………

Been out for a Bike Ride on Boxing Day too and fell off again…………..and got wet feet……….but it was a route we had not done before and will do again when it has dried out properly………………total ridden 15.1 miles……………also did a 5 mile walk this morning from Burley down the old railway line to Holmsley and stopped at the Old Station House Tea Rooms for Tea and Dorset Apple cake………………

Have been very good with food and not gone too mad with the snacky stuff…………..I prefer savoury to sweet snacks any way……………Pretzels and Twiglets rock and are not bad calorie wise…………..off to be weighed again tonight………

More random mutterings soon…………..

6 Days and counting

By redpanda On December 19th, 2009

Been through all the stuff we have bought for the kids tonight…………..they have got quite a lot from us again this year………….but then we only really spoil them on Christmas and Birthdays any way………….I can’t say what we have got them in case one of them reads this but lets just say it will be a battle over what is on TV…………….or either of the games consoles……………..thought I had lost one of Tim’s presents but I found it again thank goodness……………

I am so looking forward to having a decent amount of time off over Christmas for a change…………8 whole days………..woo hoo…………………Time to get stuff done including teaching the 9 year old to cook………..well that is what he says he wants to do…………will have to try and teach him even though I am not the worlds best cook myself………….not sure what he wants to make but we will see…………….other things will include getting out on the bikes a few times………hopefully for a fly as well if the weather is not too bad and Baiter is not too wet………….you never know……………also try and get the tidying up to scratch as well…………

Not been cycling today………..too cold and I feel a bit bunged up but might try tomorrow……………I am still struggling with hills though…………..I hate going down and struggle going up sometimes especially when I feel bunged up or my knee pops………..still tomorrow should be a fairly flat run if we go over Hurn Forest………..I want to try some other places with not too many hills in them………….sort of off road routes but not too off road………..I think I prefer the trails anyway………..

Still dieting and still slowly losing weight…………..as long as it keeps coming off I don’t mind…………..even going for the low fat Christmas snacks as well this year and very little alcohol………………..I think that is what caused the amount of weight I gained last year………………….so have stopped all together but may have a couple of glasses of wine with Christmas Dinner………………

More ramblings as the week progresses………………..

Its called Christmas you know

By redpanda On December 15th, 2009

Ok so for the last two years I have been very Bah Humbug about it but this year I feel so positive and good about Christmas that I want the whole world to know……………..

I have presents done…………non perishable food bought………..Turkey is in my Mum’s freezer…………so all in all I should be in a position on Christmas Eve to only by the fresh stuff we need………….and to top it all I have the most time off over Christmas this year that I think I have ever had in all my years of working…………….I finish on 22/12 and go back for just one day between then and 04/01……………I am so looking forward to it……………

What I love about Christmas is the sights and the smells………….now they have got rid of that awful cone in Poole town centre and got a real tree I think that Christmas is really almost here………….I love cooking the dinner……….seeing the kids open their presents………..watching TV as a family and there are loads of other things I love as well…………in fact the only thing I hate is wrapping presents because I am not very good at it…………..

On the subject of presents we did our Secret Santa at work today……………..I got a cook book that was written by the spy author Len Deighton……………….who used to be a food writer for the Observer a while back…………..whoever got it knows that although I am on a diet I am very much a foodie……………

Been out cycling at the weekend…………only once though cos the other time Tim let me have a lie in……….only to be disturbed by Ryan telling me where he had gone and Kristie telling me the same but also that she was going to work…………………grrrrr I love lie ins but hate being disturbed………..I managed to surface at about 9.45 about 5 minutes before Tim got back………….

Not a lot else to tell right now………….more soon……………..with Christmas musings…………..

Bullocks……………and a few other things……….

By redpanda On November 7th, 2009

Been a funny sort of week you know……had a touch of this cold/throat bug that is going around and felt right out of it Wednesday and Thursday………..though I did not stop laughing Thursday after I had been told I had caused mayhem on Facebook on Wednesday night (went to bed very early due to feeling rough) by calling one of my colleagues at work male instead of female………………..well I knew the name but not the person at the time but at least I know who she is now…….and to be honest I had spoken to her but did not know her name……………I re read the thread later and had a good laugh over it……………..and it is easy to think that someone called Chris would be a bloke…………

Lost another half pound this week……………have got back into Wii Fit and doing the new exercises is brilliant……………..I want to unlock the next level on Rythmn Kung Fu as that is great fun……………..also like the cycling game and the new jogging section…………..not tried to juggle yet though………..but it also helps your brain as you have to be observant when Jogging and also the new balance tests in the body test as well are one for the body and one for the mind………….

Been out Cycling again today…………but we did not have to take the car as we went over on to Canford Heath and Canford Magna…………………….some really dodgy downhills that I walked or more to the point slid down in some cases and only one or two that I could not get up on the bike…………..some of the paths were really narrow with prickle bushes either side and I nearly got hit in the face by a bramble……………..but best of all…………..I DID NOT FALL OFF……………hang the flags out she got something right……………Oh and discovered on one of the paths that there were 4 Bullocks………………and we had to get off the bikes and tread carefully around them………….I have not been so scared in a long time………………….

Ok think I will go colour my hair again now…………………

Its starting to look good

By redpanda On October 27th, 2009

All this cycling is paying off I think………..been out Saturday, walked with Ryan while he cycled on Sunday, went out again yesterday and today and going again tomorrow……………The down side of today was ending up with a flat front tyre and not being able to cycle back and we would be as far away from the car as you can get at the time it was discovered. So Tim cycled back to the car and drove it round to the car park at the other end of the track whilst Ryan and I walked back…………well Ryan cycled and then went cycling round the virtually empty car park…………and for once I did not fall off………… well I nearly did yesterday but managed to keep control of it quite nicely…………stopped off at the bike shop on the way back and got replacement inner tubes for my bike and changed them over so we can go out tomorrow somewhere different………..not sure where we are going yet though but it will be somewhere out in the New Forest…………

The other good thing with this is its helping me with my weight loss………….lost 4lb this week…………(thanks for all the Facebook comments they made me laugh) and looking towards losing more this week as there is nothing to get in the way…………been trying out some recipes again………….New York Burgers tonight and doing Sweet and Sour Chicken Slimming World Style tomorrow night………….I just hope it works…………..I also tried my first desert which is a low syn value one which is a variation on Eton Mess……………just keep me away from the meringues……..I love them…………..

Not been out with the camera much lately…………….not had time to with all this exercise……………not been kiting either but that has been because either the wind has been wrong or its been chucking it down………..its now the end of the Speedway season and the only other thing I get wrapped up in is music………….bought the Paloma Faith CD which I still need to listen to in full but again have not had the time……………..there are two or three I am going to ask for for Christmas……………..

More ponderings in the week